What do you do on a daily basis? Wait for Julios to make some fugazie deals happen? You don't have a job, the real estate that you owned with your family is sold. Having a family, bills never end and your money is dwindling because you have a monthly nut of about $8-10k/month.  How much did the hurricanes through Central America hurt your slot machine business? Don't you wish you never did what you did? You must be so frustrated and stressed.  

http://www.bbc.com/news/av/world-latin-america-41538290/hurricane-nate-deadly-storm-devastates-nicaragua

Make the call and step down.