We always feel dejected, used, burned out, hopeless, (fill in the blank ______) every time our expectations aren't fulfilled. I, too, just a couple of weeks ago, felt we were on the verge of great profits, finally. Turns out it was just another bad case of wishful thinking.

But, think about it. How many times have we all been here before? Does it not run in a cycle? Yup, my net worth in my IB account is getting smaller and smaller, again, just like before. Then it went up again. Now it's down again. Yet, I still have my train ticket. Why am I holding on when I'm as dejected, too? Well duh. I keep hold of my ticket because there's a train sitting there, waiting.

Yup, it's not going anywhere yet, but it's there. If it's there, that means there's going to be a trip to take. Just have to wait until all the BS gets cleared off the tracks.

Don't we all know that every dirty trick under the sun will be played out by the government and the banksters to try and retain their power? Sure we do. Yet here we are feeling self-pity because they didn't die today. They lived yet another day to pile more BS on the tracks, blocking the train I'm patiently waiting on.

I see everyday more and more desperate maneuvering taking place as they do more dirty tricks to save their behinds. It's like watching a person bleed to death from ever more paper cuts, a very good analogy. They're cutting themselves with their own paper more everyday.

It's like a sick form of entertainment. I enjoy watching these thieves get their just reward, hoping they're feeling like caged animals knowing their fate. I will bet they slap each other on the back every time they win a battle, to be able to fight again tomorrow, yet ya have to know they're expending every waking minute figuring out the next battle plan. They've changed from living a peaceful, very comfortable life, into economic solders just trying to stay alive another day. They created the mess, now they have to live in it, too.

That's fine, I'll wait until their last drop of blood has leaked out of a few trillion paper cuts.

Yet in a way, as much as I want my gold holdings to soar, I don't really want the world I've enjoyed to collapse and disappear just so I can maintain some sort of living standard because I have gold & silver holdings. My holdings are my insurance. Do I want my house to burn down just because I have house insurance? Surely not! I like my house. The same is true of the economy I've been comfortable in. I'm not going to enjoy people around me suffering.

I will try to live my normal, daily life until the collapse comes, and I know it' comings, so do all of you, but I'm not really that anxious for it to arrive. I'm really not.

Terry

(Full of mixed feelings)