"but i take the responsibility myselves and do not blame the doctor that he is not able to make me stop smoking....! (if you are able to understand what i mean..?)?

LOL, that's one of the funnier comments I've read here in a long time. Apparently, the anesthesiolgist never turned the gas off on you! You probably ought to look at this from another perspective.

Using your analogy, you're suffering from an inabiity to quit smoking.

• However, in this case, apparently to "help you", "your doctor" decided the first and best move would be to harvest a few of your major organs and give them to some of the hospital benefactors.
• Then he decided to bring in some new surgeons, and have them try to graft in some additional appendages to see if that might provide you with a sufficient distraction to make you forget your vice.
• After a few attempts with various docs, he then got rid of those docs., and hired a consultant doc to see if he might be able to do anything with you.
• However, after refusing to oversee any of the procedures....or perhaps more approprately, not understanding any of the grafting procedures enough...at least not the kind hat the new docs were performing, he decided to e-mail your family and try to explain what he's done, and tell them that he really does give a darn about you, and that he's taking all measures he can, and just needs some more time.
• All the while, the operating room was in need of some maintenance and repair, but rather than provide any, he decided the money would be better spent on his and the nurses lavish salaries, and the consultant docs and other various sources.
• Unfortunately, this has continued for some time, and finally realizing that you might be waking up from the anesthesia, he's decided that rather to let your family in to see your or tell you how you're doing from all of this mayhem he's imposed on you, instead, he's advised them he'll broadcast an interview with him on YouTube and they can ask questions after seeing that presentation.
• Oh by the way, it turns out that rather than a surgeon to help you with your addiction, it was really supposed to be a psychologist that should have treated you. Oh well, too bad, there's not enough insurance money left to cover that change, and you've spent your savings on cigarettes in the meantime, but rest assured, he's just gonna cut back on the amount of extra nurses and OR techs, and manage your health with just himself and a couple of helpers, so you're OK.

By the way, our local convenience store is now selling cigarettes by the carton for $15, and will ship to Germany. Just let me know how many cases to send you. Good luck!