Sula, I'm just catching up with the posts here and yours is the first post since my last read.  I feel heavy in my heart to know that a far away friend that I hoped to one day meet in person is traveling on a different path for now; one we shall all soon enough be traveling on ourselves. As always your post was enlightening and inspiring, and in this particular case heart wrenching. I've often read your well thought out and beautifully expressed thoughts late at night and feel that I know you personally. I am grateful to know you in this limited capacity and I wished I had met you in person.  I'm sending thoughts and prayers for you and your loved ones. I am thankful that this forum allowed me to make your acquaintance and for your camaraderie here. I will be thinking of you often. Your Poet friend of many, Kath