I am a terrible blogger friend.....I missed your original post and even those friends who expressed their feelings so I did a search and see now why you have been missing in action. I too am so sorry....it makes one realize how truely precious life is. I lost both parents and only brother before turning 40 and while the emotions die down (and you stop crying most all the time), the sense of loss really never goes away. I am sorry both for not realizing sooner why you were missing from the board and most importantly for the major loss in your life.