Every day I see how much people do to hurt themselves, if not others. I get to see how many secrets people have, how many families have dysfunction running through them.

In my daily life we consider these possibilities every day.

I may be in a point of burnout in my career over that realization.

After a while you can become cynical, and almost expect the worst from people, especially since I see sick people all day every day. And they drift through our culture, seldom really wanting to change, or not changing because change is so hard.

I am normally protected by personally knowing people, as often even the bad ones have personality traits that I can like.

However it has surprised me that my conjectures have so hurt the rest of you. I was thinking out loud, considering possibilities, and I realize that this wasn`t the right place to do it. I offended many of you. Therefore it was bad judgement on my part to share those thoughts. And it was fueled by anger, which seems to impair judgement in most people.

I am not happy to have shocked so many of you, and it was not my goal to.

I`ll not post anymore. I`m a little shaken that I was so out of touch with this community, and it`s a very uncomfortable feeling. It`s like being 16 years old again and realizing you crossed over the line of social norms.

However, it also troubles me that all of you have been hurt by this investment, and yet can generate such a kind defense for the man. I am admitting that right now, in this point in my life, you are all much nicer people than me.

I woke up early this morning, and admit that I really have been thinking about it, because it doesn`t make me happy that I have changed so. I am jealous of this reserve of kindness that you all demonstrated. Yesterday, at least, I didn`t have it.

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